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倒数:13周,5天。

眼看十二月将近,在月历上那距离,就只有两个格子那么多。 时间转眼流逝,十五周的实习生涯也默默的去掉了一周。仅剩十四周任我蹉跎。 很简短的回首过去一个星期来的点点滴滴,我的感触好多好多。 有种说法是,当你把一枚硬币抛在空中时;你就明白你所期待的,是掉落在掌心后硬币的哪一面。 我想当我步入酒店之后我忽然明白了,我想看见得我会是怎么样的。 我脑海中浮现不出那一面把我自己放在酒店里,开心的对着文件阅读然后溜走在人群间的画面。 也许那应该是许许多多我的同学和好友在选择了这科目时所期盼的光景,可是我发现我不以为意。 至少至今我仍然看不见那个座位上的我。 我明白我说过我希望我能够作为一个为别人奉献的人。 所以我选择了前厅或者人力资源。前者奉献于客户,后者奉献于同僚。 可是我总觉得我还是正在悬挂在一个脚步离地的走道,很不踏实。 说穿了,我想我始终是个珍爱自由的人。 尽管我千千万万得有多么想要成就别人,我始终还是得成就我自己。 我的自由在于我喜欢不限拘束,自由发挥。 我怀念当初我的工作是怎么样的允许我在我的范围内尽情的做选择。 选择我想要的东西,和我成就别人的方式。 也许我还不习惯。 因为高档次的东西就会理所当然的给人们设下一个规格式的格局。 当你被这镶金嵌玉的枷锁拷上时,你得到了些什么,同时候亦失去了些什么。 有了高调的美誉,你就不再拥有低调的自由。 蜘蛛侠中有一句话始终深刻的烙印在我的脑海里。 “当你拥有的越多,你的责任也就越大。” 事情总是两面的。当你把一个杯子添满水了,那就不再拥有一个轻盈且剔透的空杯。 我想,我仍然在斟酌。 斟酌着自己的期盼。 以及我对未来的憧憬。

My 1st Walkman

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我想没有人会想得到我今天是怎么样的忽然决定要买个东西就冲着去, 然后还真的没想太多的把他给带回家了。 也许也就是种冲劲吧~ 听着音乐忽然的想要~ 毕竟我想要一个这个也不是一两天的事了。 刚刚开封那瞬间的心情简直就是开心到~ 这么一来电话不能满足我的听觉这一点点遗憾也就解决了。 只是说这个月接下来就真的要省吃俭用的过了。 一点点后悔的心情都没有。 用着随机附送的EX高清耳机, 虽然媲美不了BEATS by Dr DRE 但是我呀,也好满足了~ 近来几天心情有点飘忽, 我想就只是需要点音乐来轰炸吧。 要快点开心起来,然后,努力了~

曾有个梦

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-愿望- 有个愿望。 曾经有过。 不太多人知道。 甚至有时我也会将他忘掉。 就像撕掉了的日记。 不是因为我不够矜持。 只是像握着一片剔透的玻璃。 握得太紧会血流不停。 最后痛得够了,也会放开的。 -戏- 一晚,我彻夜难眠。 我细读了我每一篇字迹。 人生如戏,有人总是这么的说。 久违的,那天我看着电影。 剧终,有着什么在我的身体里翻滚。 看看电影里那几段诗句。 忽然有个瞬间我握着笔,却不知所措。 白纸仍然空白无迹,仿佛烙印出了我的思绪。 那么轻,那么淡。 那么白,惨白。 -看- 我看着满桌子的纸张, 试图在文字里拼凑出明天和未来。 前者清晰可见,后者呢? 我的故事,到底是为了谁而模糊了? 就连视线也微微的朦胧了。 你的,梦呢?

Mai Ngao Mai Maa Chai Mai

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If you're not lonely you won't come, is that right? If you want something you'll eventually show up, am I right? Do you think I am just a substitute of someone? Stop it, I don't want it. I don't deserve this pain that you've repaid me with, are we lovers or not? All you wanted were just temporary, would it be better for you to move on ahead? A person to kill your time with, am I worth only this much? Tell me why are you still hanging out with me? Am I just someone to release your emotions and make you feel at ease when you're lonely? So you come as you please and when you're bored of me, you leave like that, am I right? You hug me softly and pretend you missed me. Said you loved me once, it didn't impress me much. Whenever I need you, you'd never shown up. Dare to say that can you? that we're still lovers... You just spend you time with others. Where was I marred by your negligence? Enough, don't gimme that behavior. When you...

061111

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It's exam already. Well, felt like things have been passing and happening too fast without i knowing. And Im not feel like sleeping tonight. Had been sleeping for the whole day. Now it's time for me to suffer some severe brain damage, lol. LAW, here i come~ Went out for a stroll last night and had some supper. I guess I never ever had a beer by myself. For this is the first time. Even last time when i like to went on a stroll to the beach I also never take beer. Life changes so drastically. Some time i would really wonder why my aim and objective are so fragile, it got shattered or flawed so easily. Sigh, live goes on. I guess i have not much choices. Just to continue the journey where I started and to witness the end. Been thinking of changing the colour of my hair =) Though I am really proud of being a Chinese and shine my black hair, But this time I would really want to have a different look. So what colour should I go for? Maybe ...