Go On. I’m Gone.

I was walking on my road back home, simply slowly and I thought that i would collapsed half way, while too bad i have not…

I was thinking and hated myself, for making the very wrong decision on my very 1st F&B class.

It was something so stupid, and until now, it disgust me.

I always proud and willingly to be a people’s servant.

They leaders are just a people servants. They are tailor to help and to do all the rest of worst things that normal humans cant.

And I was kind of proud of that capability.

But no more.

So selflessly, I’d say, i contributed a big part of me into this beautiful shit.

I even step down on my other position, thinking that i would really like to stay commit to this.

And what I get in return?

A recognition as a representative. So what?

Are there good words running around the names?

why are there bad words flying all around?

What what reputation did i get? It’s a beautiful vial of venom.

When you are complaining you have not enough time, di you ever think in my prospective of view? We have assignments, we have assessments, we have presentations, we have portfolios. So what? in addition to that I need to run survey, I need to do all the reports to our superior, i need to solve the friction between us, i need to run my organizational assignments, i need to do compilation of data, i need to fulfil my promise with my employer, i need to build up the team, and worst of all I NEED TO FACE THIS SHIT.

When you’re complaining about too sleepy and cannot do each everything just as promised, did you ever know that i was suffering from insomnia and I am actually suffering from hearing problems and minor hypertension?

when you are complaining about skipping one lunch, did you ever know that it’s almost a norm for me to have no lunch, because i need to visit multiple parties to complete my assignments and get your asses out of trouble? I even bet you wont ever mind that that’s pretty much why you never see me joining meals together, and one of our lecturers suffers until having a gastric problem. Did you?

It’s pretty much a bad honour for me to be here and be who i am.

Did you ever know why i tried. and fight. so hard. to be a high achiever?

Do you know How many hells i gone through to get myself here and now, to finally able to study in a college/ uni?

You dont know a single shit. You dont understand shit.

That’s why you never know who you are.

Do you think i got all the resource, people contacts, experiences and that nerve born with me all naturally? I Fought so bad for it. And you are looking it down. Do you even know how to gather your resource that benefits?

the more you sow, the more you reap.

But this time, i think i just accidentally planted a Raffles Flower.

You’re pretty. If the viewers never get close to you, and smell your awfulness.

 

Done

It’s just about the right time for me to plant a new plant.

I need a better view of life.